Not here anymore...

Feels like I am here, but only just. I am here physically but in my head I am an observer..watching life go by. Watching buses and people, trees and buildings and ....and nothing....nothing. My mind is blank and I am numb.
Just in a visitor mode today. I dont want to be here but I dont want to go away either. I just want to sit and feel nothing...I am not here anymore...

Current song in head...

When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like 2 balloons.
Now I've got that feeling once again,I can't explain.
You would not understand, this is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Floyd, Comfortably Numb, The Wall