I am. A waste of space. Right now.
For the first time in my life I have nothing...*NOTHING* left to do. The thesis is written, the teaching is done, the journals have been read. I have no work. Nothing.
In the past 30 years of my existence I have been busy all the time. School at 2.5 yrs of age and then BA, Post Grad, Job, MA, Job, PhD, Job, Job, PhD.....it been an endless list of studying, working, Studying + working, Working + studying, working and looking for study, Studying and looking for work..but there has never been any time when there is nothing on my mind..as a to-do list. As in when-I-get-time-I-will-do____. Its strange, not sad.
Yes I have had my holidays, and my travel, and my time outs, but even then, at the back of my mind I know...I need to do this when I get back. I know there is work on my desk, I know there are things I have to read, process and write about.
But right now...its nothing!!!
So I can actually wake up..and lie in bed, eat breakfast and watch morning TV!!!Lounge around, shower and get back into track bottoms :) no phone calls to make, no email to check, no bus/train to catch. I can read books I like, listen to music I like, and chill without the clock ticking in my head!
I am sure I shall get bored of it soon, but right now, I am happy! doing nothing!