I got some answers. Some thoughts..and some comments. Ah ha.
I dont think I want to hold on...coz one does that when afraid...and I am not afraid. I am ok. I am cool. I am good.
I am back from long trips and talking sessions with friends old and new..and now that I have talked enough I have a sore throat and a little voice left only.
Shall put up some pictures soon.
PhD seems to be sorting out as well..and for some strange reason I am kind of worried about what life would be without the PhD sword over my head. Do I want to find out..or do I want to stretch this last bit of education I shall have...to the last and longest minute. I have to remember I CANT study any more after this :)